Adoption fundraising stinks

I am having a really hard time with the “fundraising for adoption” concept. It’s a tough one friends. It’s kind of like how I felt making our profile book (a book about our family that will be given to birth moms choosing a family for their baby – felt like I was “selling” our family), or doing a home study (where you are asked a million questions and have to show your bank account and messy basement to a social worker you don’t even know). It just doesn’t seem right, it is so unnatural. It seems so unfair and dumb really.  Like we have to ask our friends and family to donate money so we can get a baby? And why is this so expensive anyway?  It also feels like just a gut punch reminder that we can’t just have a baby biologically – that we have to do all this silly stuff.

But here’s what God keeps reminding me:

“It’s not about you”.

 This adoption was never about me, or us getting a baby. It has always been about God.

The story in 2 chronicles 20 has always been one of my favorites. I love it. I love how Jehoshaphat has a huge battle in front of him, he looks to God (probably pretty scared) and remembers all the times God has kept the covenant for His people, and so trusts him for this future battle. God says “Do not be afraid and do not be afraid or discouraged, for the battle is not yours but God’s” (2 Chronicles 20:21).

Friends, we are up against some vast armies. Cancer. Death. Anxiety.  Abortion. Teething. Addiction. Sleepless nights. Lust. Three year old attitudes. This world is fallen, and to try and follow God daily is hard.

God is writing a story for our lives and for each of our children. The story is his, not mine. I get to play a part of it, but it is not for my glory. He is weaving so many people and stories together to show His glory. We know that if we follow him that He will provide victory in the battle.

 I cannot wait to tell each of our children awesome stories of how God made a way for them.  How he provided meals during our most stressed seasons, encouragement from friends and family too keep going, doctors – who have saved Gideon’s and my life, peace that surpasses understanding, and we are trusting that for the adoption he will provide financially. We will tell this next little baby how his birth momma courageously chose life for them, and that God used so many people to bring them home. We will teach them that sometimes life is made of hard, scary, and some seemingly stupid battles, but that it’s not about them. It’s about God getting the glory and God keeping his covenant. 

And sweet little one, we should be so glad that it is not about us, but about God fighting and winning His battles because that’s what he always will do.

-B

 

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